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The Day After.
I feel like the Bill Pullman character in a Tom Hanks/Meg Ryan movie. At least I got let down really easy. In fact, it really was the nicest way to get your heart broken. For a few years, I didn't think I had one. And even though you know people don't mean it, sometimes it's actually nice to hear "We'll always be friends," as opposed to, "You're psychotic and I'm uncomfortable and I'd really like to look up the parameters of the stalker law."
I always go temporarily insane around February.
At least I can die and say thatfor once in my life I did a big grand romantic gesture complete with a cool, witty, professing-your-love speech that I didn't stutter through. John Cusack standing outside Ione Skye's house with a boom box? I kicked his ass. Although that bastard got the happy ending.
"Do you really think there's happy ever after for people like us?"
-- Rene Russo in The Thomas Crown Affair
Why do people say: "I wish you told me sooner"? Is it so that they won't be as nice to you in the case that you might get "led on?" Or maybe it's to give them the opportunity to mention how they're totally in love with another guy?
I'm with someone else but I've never felt so lonely before. I really must learn to control my feelings. I nearly broke down and started bawling in my coffee at work this morning. But it's really strange. I've never felt so un-selfish towards someone before. I really hope she's gonna be happy with this guy cause the last thing i want is for her to be unhappy. She kept saying, "I'm sorry. I feel so bad." And I kept trying to tell her it's not her fault, she couldn't help it. And she should probably feel flattered.
I guess everyone's gotta get hurt at some point. I'm just really glad that it was her that finally did it.
No matter what anyone says though, things are probably going to be different between us. I'm really gonna miss talking to her. But like what Mel Gibson said to Michelle Pfeiffer in Tequila Sunrise, "Looking at you hurts more."
